The yearning to not yearn

Imi Lo
2 min readOct 4, 2024

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I no longer pray for what I want, or what I’ve lost.

Not for what needs to happen, or what must not.

I pray now for my heart to let go of its attachment to these wants.

I no longer pray for what I want, or what I’ve lost.

Not for what I crave to happen, or what I desperately fear might.

I pray, paradoxically, for the dismantling of my own prayers.

I pray to be released from my attachments. For the release of any desperate plea.

I pray to become someone who is okay, even full, even brimming, when things don’t go my way.

Yes, I yearn for the eradication of yearning itself.

And in the shattering, in being brought low, stripped bare — there it was — A surprising fullness.

The feel of autumn air, the warmth of a mug in my hands. The fact that I can still find love and passion in my heart.

When I lost what I thought was everything, I found everything: The sweet, sweet joy of a beginner’s mind.

I yearn to find fullness in the small, in the is-ness of what is, even when it is not what I willed it to be.

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Imi Lo
Imi Lo

Written by Imi Lo

Imi works with intense, existentially aware and gifted people. Eggshell Therapy: eggshelltherapy.com. Pecan Philosophy: pecanphilosophy.com

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